I’ve learned the hard way that no matter how much indigenous “blood” we may have, if we are not connected to a recognized group/tribe/organization made up of other indigenous people, we are seen as “wannabes” (I hate that term). That means living our lives like other members of that group/tribe/organization (participating in Pow Wows, beadwork/weaving, cooking traditional dishes, religion, language, etc.)
Sweetie….you are part of a group….you’re here at Saponitown. As far as acceptance, the way that you live your life constitutes how “Indian” you are, not your skin….and if you are living the Red Road, you will be accepted for who you are by those that really matter.
I used to think the way you are now many years ago until we started going to all the different pow wows…by listening to the elders talk and asking questions is how I learned what was really important to me. My “acceptance”, if you want to call it that, came gradually as I came to know more and more people on the pow wow circuit. It took years, it doesn’t happen overnight. And there are still those out there that don’t “accept” me, but, I don’t care. I am what I am and I cannot change that nor who my ancestors were. I am happy in the circle of friends I have now. But that circle can change…nothing in life stays the same.
My advice….for what it’s worth……live your life. If cooking NA, beading, pow wowwing is what feels good to you…then do it.