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  • #25709

    janette
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    Dianne and all,

    Just saw your last question. There is no charge. There is a need for exchange and that depends on the person. We that are around and support make it our business to inform others what is needed. The elders do this full time and they have to live too. It was an old tradition to bring a deer or something of value to honor the effort made. The creator smiles on a good exchange is my feeling. Sometimes if travel is involved we pool our money to make sure gas, tires, car repair, motel, food and everything is covered plus a bit to live on at home. It is not good for the one that opens the door to live in poverty. My elders do not live a high life in the material way but live a good life. They live in a simple single wide trailor and give far more than they get. I have never seen anyone turned down because they simply did not have money… but you get my point.

    Now there is one thing required after a ceremony. That is wopila. that is a gratitude sweat and feeding the people. It is a simple feast to thank the creator for hearing and answering the prayer. That is to be done within 4 days of the origional prayer or ceremony.

    If it is a healing ceremony then it becomes a bit more involved but my feeling is you get out of it what you put in… that is not always in $$$$

    Hope that helps,

    Janette

    #25710

    techteach
    Moderator

    Janette,

    Yes, I will be back out, probably later this summer, although it will just be to stop by on our way west to camp. We spent a week out there last summer, but this time was much more special. We met more people, were able to help more people, and learned much more. And most likely, trips out there will be fairly frequent from now on. It is a very intense experience, intense physically and emotionally. It makes you feel good to help, but it is such a drop in the bucket of what is needed. But we made some wonderful friends there.

    We ended up there because of the interest in genealogy. One of my Sinkeys was on Rosebud in 1910. I stopped there too this visit.

    Thanks for the link.

    Techteach

    #25711

    janette
    Participant

    Techteach,

    So good you have a Sinkey connection to the Lakota. I was picked up or adopted if you will but feel non the less connected. My search goes on with Chickasaw, Creek and maybe Nottoway in my history.

    Yes i understand all too well the struggle on all levels as well as the drop in the bucket. Once you touch it though it pulls you so hard to help.

    Thank you for all you do for the people.

    Janaette

    #25712

    janette
    Participant

    Techteach,

    Forgot to welcome a stop by. That would be great… just need to know your schedule as a travel delivering the pottery we make. Would hate to miss ya if it was just for a few minutes.

    Janette

    #25715

    Linda
    Keymaster

    What kind of pottery do you make, janette? Thanks for what you’re sharing.

    TechTeach, I don’t recall that your Sinkey was at Rosebud? What brought them there? My distant cousin was born there. She was from an old church family that got into that generations back in Maryland. They were out there as missionaries. She was from the Hudson line that very well may have been the one (or one of the ones) that carried that Blackfoot ID.

    #25718

    janette
    Participant

    Hi Linda and all,

    I am a Native American Pottery producer. We make 6 different lines. Horse Hair etched. Horse Hair and Feather, Red and Black Deep Etch. Jolie a gray marble finish etched… we are starting hand coiled pit fired. I started this for jobs for Native American Aritsts. Until last year we produced between 1,500 and 2,000 pieces a month. The company has employeed up to 14 Native American Artist. It has become too big for me so when my Dad got sick last year i took some time off and after he passed i moved to be close to Hochoka People (my Lakota Family). So i am still in transition. Monday the whole pottery production part of the company will move to Standing Rock and Eagle Butte Reservations and the VA Native Artists will be subcontracted to do the bulk of the work. They have between 50 to 75 people waiting for work there and believe it will be a boost for the company and work for them. They did not have contracts for the Compensated Work Therapy program. This is the time of year we need to be backstocked but it will get there.

    I am also subcontracting to make T-shirts (all native american designs) as well as leather pillows, sweat dresses, ribbon shirts, and shawls. This is where i am having fun now because i love the design work and this is my baby. Not just a founder and mananger i am an artist again. They say that people who start companies should not run them so i am at a starting place with all the new products. Dakota Textiles will do the sewing and it is a subdivision of Black Hills Special Services. The people there are developmently delayed. The seamstresses are not but the workers will do jobs like finge, trim threads, packaging etc. It is all about jobs here and i am making an effort to create as many as i can. A large protion up to 25% goes to giveaway for things mentioned in the above posts. I have a gallery and design studio and when i am here it is open but i have to travel a lot. I hate to ship the pottery as so many break so i have traveled almost 200,000 miles in the last 4 years. By subcontracting this will stop. They will have to learn how to pack!

    I have not know if it was proper to post photos of our work. If it isnt i can send photos to personal emails if folks want to see a few samples of what we do. We have a wide range of and we mostly wholesale and prices range from $8,00 to several hundred. I am not tring to sell just share. Friends, locals and people on this site would qualify for the wholesale rate. All are invited to stop if you are in South Dakota and visit Migrations Gallery in Hot Springs.

    The name comes from the work connected to this Forum and our search for our history and the travels we take and the travels they took. My dream is to have the subcontracting work so well that i can take the time to trace the places here where my family lived. Nottoway, PE County, Flat Creek, on and on not to mention the gatherings, where i can meet some of you in person. that is my hope and hearts desire.

    One Day!

    Janette

    Janette

    #25720

    techteach
    Moderator

    Janette and Linda:

    If we make it out there again this summer, we will try to stop by. We have not finalized what we plan to do, if anything, but we bought a new-to-us vintage travel trailer and talked of where we could camp that would permit us to swing by and say hi to the friends we made at Pine Ridge. Likely we will be out next spring break. It is now expected of me. I collected a van of donations at my university and brought a student with me and spent spring break there, building beds and repairing houses.

    Linda, I am not sure why one of my Sinkeys was there, but there are still Sinkeys out in the area. This Sinkey appeared to work for a Mitchell family, another of my surnames. I assumed that it was missionary work also, but my great-aunt’s book says something about someone. some kind of uncle of mine, having respiratory problems and going west to alleviate these problems. It might be the same Sinkey. And we just keep finding clues of connection with these lines, don’t we? My ggggrandmother was a Sinkey who marries a Potter.

    Janette, we believe that the Sinkeys were Shawnee. My Blackfoot ID comes through the McLane/Ralston line. The Sinkeys originate in central PA, Maryland, and WV, while the McLane/Ralston line came from near Pittsburgh.

    Techteach

    #25723

    janette
    Participant

    Techteach,

    As you know Hot Springs is about an hour from Pine Ridge. You are welcome to stay at our Ceremony Grounds but it is 15 miles past Hot Springs toward Hill City and Custer and may not be convenient. There is a KOA here also but your best bet may be a camp ground RV park connected to the new Casino that may be open in Pine Ridge by the time you are to the area…not sure about that. RV and other travelers park across from the river here in Hot Springs for a night or two in a large parking lot but there are no facilities.

    I will ask my friends who work in Pine Ridge if they know of some better way. I am sure there is time to learn more before you get here. This will be a treat to meet you and the ones you travel with. And good for you to do your drop…you cant see the ripples but they are there.

    Janette

    #25724

    janette
    Participant

    Linda…

    Pottery prices range from $8.00 to several hundred. I should not type so late at night… other mistakes but that one stood out.

    Janette

    #25726

    tianicwanga
    Participant

    hi everyone

    Shirley I felt the same way as you did but since reading the post her I feel more confident in my choice to find my NDN connection and wanting to learn the ways of my ancestors and to have pride in my mixed background .

    I have only went to a powwow once when i was small my mother took me it was held in the Baltimore convention center we did not stay long because I think that my mother felt the same way as you did and she although was at least 1/4 Cherokee was only raised as AA.

    I wanted to go to more but i let fear stop me and now I hope to attend the next event that comes near me .

    tia

    #25730

    MistofRain752
    Participant

    I have been accept finally into the site and I thank you. I choice this thread to reply first. I was born in southwestern Virginia, not far from the place my daddy always refered too as the homeplace a log house next to a cave up in the mountains. Our family moved north to Ohio when I was a baby because of the mines closing. We lived in a very ethnic neighborhood. When I was a little girl I would go home crying because I wasn’t, Italian, polish or german whatever as my playmates were going to their celebrations, dances etc. and I couldn’t be a part of it. On one of these occasions my daddy got me up in his lap and wiped my tears and said you are part cherokee and be proud of it. Their is native blood on both sides. As I grew up, became a women and blended as my ancestors did. From time to time strangers would walk up to me and say your Cherokee aren’t you and I would say yes I am. Including an anthropologist. I didn’t think about it much, but their was always something missing in my life. Their are other things that I am not ready to share yet here but maybe in time I will… After caring for both my parents until they crossed over and raised my son, I still was missing something in my life. I said to the Creator I am yours, I have controled my life for all these years, you are in control until you take away my last breath. He brought me here to Seattle, WA area, put in among our people and fully accepted. My life is complete. These last 8 yrs have been a good journey. My first powwow I attend I cried when they started playing the drums and singing for grand entry because my spirit knew I was home and complete, I had found my people again. Go to the powwows, but go with a humble heart, observe and learn the protocol. If you don’t know, don’t be afraid to ask one of the dancers or someone. If someone asks were your from? Who’s your people? Don’t say I have 1/16 th of cherokee, blackfoot or whatever nation, french, dutch, english, irish but I choice to walk the native way. Thats a real bell ringer for the F.B.’s. I say Virginia and my people are cherokee, creek (although their is more I have found its good enough). Go and learn the community, ask someone to show you how to dance. Let them get to know you by your spirit…and if its ment to be, put your dance regalia together and get out their and dance your prayers, its a time of celebration!!! My peoples names are NOE,REDWINE,MULLINS, HARRIS, REYNOLDS,PRICE,STIDHAM,COLLINSWORTH,FANNON,FLANNERY and some others that I can’t think of right now.

    I hope we are here to help each other grow in our walk and learn. Its a pleasure to meet you all! It is good my friends, Barbara

    #25731

    Wachinika
    Participant

    Welcome Barbara,

    Thank you for sharing your experiences and valuable guidance. I have a grown son in Bellingham who is a professional fisherman on a small boat in Alaska, June through Fall.

    I’ve heard many Indian people around our age say they were hurt by the image of Indians in westerns. They felt they were always portrayed as bad.

    But my father always got excited when they came on and would call me to sit on his lap and point out all the things about them he could and say how good they were at everything they did. And when they rode off he would always say,

    “They’ll be back! You watch for them now.”

    It is good you are here:)

    Dianne

    #25732

    Wachinika
    Participant

    janette wrote:

    Thanks for your thread! I have just moved to Hot Springs South Dakota to be near my Lakota family . Pine Ridge and White Clay are close. Techteach do you plan to come again? If any of you are in the area i would love to spend time with you and share experiences and contacts. Most of my time prior to my move has been spent at Wanblee off and on for the last 15 years.

    Many of the family i pray and live with help others as much as they can. We take wood and food once or twice a month as money comes in to help. There are some so destitute you would think we are in another country altogether. We are not associated with any group, government or agency…. just family helping each other. For example we can get a pickup load of food for $44 from the food bank and take it to those that dont have cars and are too remote. You would be supprised how many do not have cars or the ones they have are broken down. We make sure several families have some sort of Christmas (not hand me downs) but mostly it is the basics.

    This is a traditional family and we follow the old ways. We work quietly and share with all people. There is a web site: http://www.hochokahealing.org to get more information or donate. Because this forum has also become part om my extended family also i feel it is ok to share the contact information. Moderator if i am wrong in doing this please edit if need be. It is just that i feel so fortunate to be connected to a family that follows the real traditions and helps people i have at last let you all know about it. As many of you know i am like most on this forum “mixed blood” and i know so few traditionals that welcome all races much less mixed bloods. The main point is to let all of you know more about me and what i am about and a true uncomplicated way to help people over here without any adm. overhead going out the window. Also the invitation to come for a visit when and if any of you are in the area. There are so many true hearts that are seeking here and i wnat to know you better. Thanks

    Janette

    To Janette and All,

    Whew! I’m having a “midlife identity crisis”

    As I attended university or political activism events within the Indian community here, my medium aqua eyes were enough to have me greeted by holy men and prominent men in the community with stories of w_nn_b_s stealing the L. religion and what was and wasn’t acceptable. Another common greeting to me by prominent Indian men who publish articles on w_nn_b_s was, “Why is everyone part Cherokee?” Of course I had thought allot on that one. I’d reply, “Well they were awfully friendly people.” and how the path to the west went right through their territory and that they’d had contact with whites at least 200 years before the Nebraska tribes. Then I’d tell them what I thought was my unique, mysterious Blackfoot Cherokee story. Then with dignity and respectfulness, I would take my place and contribute. Interesting interactions would follow.

    Everywhere I had been told through the years that if one wished to learn of an Indian heritage you went to the community and requested such from them, that you may be accepted and taught but that you would then be expected to live by the rules of their culture, of which was a socialistic sharing of all resources you had when asked by needy members of the community. In this city that could mean allowing house guests whenever. You would be expected to contribute to the wealth of the circle and partake of social events.

    I returned to college 1999-2001. I realized only here yesterday I was at the epicenter of the w_nn_be police state. There is a professor in a neighboring state, who through the attacks of the members of this specific wps group, recently lost his job. He had come here to speak when I was in school. We’d studied some of his work in NA Lit. However, my NA Language Instructor, against University policy, forbid me to miss class and go to the lecture that was sponsored by the NA Studies Department which I was in. I of course did go. Owning that I am part Indian won me trouble in two other classes.

    I read the local L. Holy man is one of 100-500 L. elders who met a few times and published a statement online denouncing what they call selling their religion to non-L. They become especially incensed when it is then published on the Internet or taught by non-L., especially if they are of poor character and distort the religion. Some of the w police which includes several reporteres, go so far as to attack even those who wish only to research their genealogy.

    I should add I have had nice friends and pleasant interactions within the Indian community.

    I am here, geographically. There is an Inter-tribal Indian Center where these people are on the board and where events are held. Until Janette’s post yesterday, I’d felt I needed to be completely obedient to the boundaries presented to me locally. I’d been living within them and I think feeling at least a little repressed. So now up is down and down is up. I need to rethink this and find the truth for me. Somewhere in here last night I remembered my own very rich and powerful spirituality that I’d also been repressing.

    Online this year I discovered the beliefs of the liberal branch of Quakers and saw word for word it lined up with the religious beliefs my parents instilled in me mostly outside of a formal church setting. I learned for the first time online one line of my mother’s were Quakers.

    I was somewhat shocked when I read on here that some mixed people hate their white part. I don’t. What I have difficulty with is capitalism. I was born with an inclination toward more self-sufficiency, growing, making, and creating your own. Most of my European ancestors came here for religious freedom, not wealth.

    I will find and define myself somewhere, at sometime between Indian and White; and Jesus’ teachings and Indigenous Beliefs and my own personal convictions; between socialistic giving and personal freedom. I recall an old song saying “You can’t please everyone so you’ve got to please yourself”.

    So thank you Janette, for opening a door for me last night and freeing me from what I’d allowed to take power over me. I’m not sure I’ll walk through that door; but I do want to peek in. And congradulations on feeling freed to be an artist.

    Dianne

    #25736

    sammarroq
    Participant

    tianicwanga wrote: hi everyone

    Shirley I felt the same way as you did but since reading the post her I feel more confident in my choice to find my NDN connection and wanting to learn the ways of my ancestors and to have pride in my mixed background .

    I have only went to a powwow once when i was small my mother took me it was held in the Baltimore convention center we did not stay long because I think that my mother felt the same way as you did and she although was at least 1/4 Cherokee was only raised as AA.

    I wanted to go to more but i let fear stop me and now I hope to attend the next event that comes near me .

    tia

    Tia,

    I have gained perspective by all the posts here, and am also more confident in finding more on my ancestors. I wish you all the best in finding yours and I am glad you as well have benefited from these posts.

    Shirley:)

    #25737

    mrspatino
    Participant

    This is one of the best threads I have read in along time, that reflects the essence of a person and finding the path laid for that person.

    Sometimes we find ourselves on a long difficult road of the big question ” WHAT THE HECK ARE WE?” But only we can define that through Creator.

    I heard a brother in a presentaion say recently talking about the word Wasitchu (not sure of the spelling) But the reference to what the word translated to. He said what it’s litteral translation was: One who takes and does not give back…(not White as to what many people think) He went on to say I have never met a person the color of the blinds (which were litteral white) he also talked about being Akitchita (protector, defender of the people and native man) and says regardless of what you think I am. I am 100% human being.

    1. Life lesson regardless of where we are, what we look like, what we follow…we are 100% human being.

    hmm ok well then dont know where that all came from lol, i just dropped some mental deepness it just kind of lands all over the place so whoever that message is for. May Creator Bless you and keep you safe and protected on your path.

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