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    janette
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    Dear Dianne and all,

    Something was sturing last night! From my point of view it is the Creator at work. I said i was moved to say the things i said and there is and obvious reason. Those of us that bridge the cultures inside every cell have a difficult but essential roll in life. It pains me to read your experiences and know first hand they are all too true for most of us. Your inner strength has been called upon and you stand strong.

    It is my belief we are not to relenquish this power in the face of adversity whither a challange comes in the form of words, shunning or human imposed rules and requirements. This can be accomplished with dignity and honor. Ultimately respect comes as a result of an inner knowing and it is tested over and over. The trick is to come to grips with that inner knowing and respecting ourselves and the outside response of respect may take a while but it will show up. If respect does not come then walk your own path anyway. We only have to answer to the Creator ultimately not answer to sadly confused, hurt and damaged power hungry self agrandized humans.

    Just because we choose to claim all of ourselves including the Indian part is in my hart a necessary way to become whole! The real power in the truth of who we are and what we have to offer is no small matter if we solve our own inner conflicts.

    It is a joy to have been a small part of your coming to meet more of your truth and to share that not all Holy People are the same. Discernment Discernmant!

    Janette

    #25749

    sammarroq
    Participant

    I never knew that this thread would evoke such responses, everyone’s posts have caused me to stop and ponder….We all seach for meaning, to know who we are and where we come from. There will be obstacles and those who do not accept us… well we cannot let that stop us from going forward.

    I believe our ancestors call to us and want us to know them and how they lived…and maybe give some good advice on how we should live…no doubt the Creator watches over all things and has great plans for us all.

    We need to be strong and not be swayed…I want to share a poem I wrote…kind of sums up my life so far…but I wouldn’t trade one minute of one day.:)

    Shirley

    An oak am I

    gnarled branches reaching high

    not like other trees am I

    bristly coat weathered by trials, by time

    taking many twists and turns to reach so high

    though weak, “Not I!”

    seasoned bark, contorted branches do make me strong

    ardent and undaunted will I stand strong

    able to endure, embrace, go on…

    #25752

    janette
    Participant

    Shirley,

    I love your poem!

    I have gone back and read everything again on the post and want to pull out all the words of wisdom that touch me the most but dont know how yet to work the system.

    All the messages that had the greatest impact are about unity. When Dianne said that because we are mixed we can bring something to the Indian people i believe that. When Tom said we are a community here on this forum i believe that. Mrs. P we are 100% human! This is a wonderous adventure to be able to share on such a level.

    I know i use strong words sometimes but i cant stand to see our “mixed” people be hurt and abused anymore. Evan if it comes from a despiration (generational post tramatic stress) from the ones that are passing on the pain.

    My sister jokingly said one time she thinks the “militants” are just Custers Regiment reincarnated and still working hard to kill our spirit. And about cards and ###. I have heard my elder call his his card a prison #…why should we seek that. Our relatives had the gumption and wisdom to not go to prison, they did not cave…they paid the price to escape… i consider that a strength. But what a backlash.

    About our relatives pushing us to tell their story that has to be true. Sometimes when i am working i can feel a presance behinde me and have started to know which one it is. Georgia Ann Sevannah Carr is the one for me Nancy Love was her mother… pushing me to learn more all the time.

    Thank you for this thread from me and my old ones!

    Blessings to every one today.

    Janette

    #25770

    sammarroq
    Participant

    janette wrote: Shirley,

    I love your poem!

    I have gone back and read everything again on the post and want to pull out all the words of wisdom that touch me the most but dont know how yet to work the system.

    All the messages that had the greatest impact are about unity. When Dianne said that because we are mixed we can bring something to the Indian people i believe that. When Tom said we are a community here on this forum i believe that. Mrs. P we are 100% human! This is a wonderous adventure to be able to share on such a level.

    I know i use strong words sometimes but i cant stand to see our “mixed” people be hurt and abused anymore. Evan if it comes from a despiration (generational post tramatic stress) from the ones that are passing on the pain.

    My sister jokingly said one time she thinks the “militants” are just Custers Regiment reincarnated and still working hard to kill our spirit. And about cards and ###. I have heard my elder call his his card a prison #…why should we seek that. Our relatives had the gumption and wisdom to not go to prison, they did not cave…they paid the price to escape… i consider that a strength. But what a backlash.

    About our relatives pushing us to tell their story that has to be true. Sometimes when i am working i can feel a presance behinde me and have started to know which one it is. Georgia Ann Sevannah Carr is the one for me Nancy Love was her mother… pushing me to learn more all the time.

    Thank you for this thread from me and my old ones!

    Blessings to every one today.

    Janette

    Thanks Janette, nature has a story to tell, if we take the time to sit quietly and watch and listen. I agree with you on all your points; these posts hold a lot to be pondered…think I will…

    Shirley

    #25771

    DAJ42
    Participant

    techteach wrote: White Clay, Nebraska is made up of 3 taverns and a few other sundry shacks. These 3 taverns sell 4 million cans of beer to the Indians every year, making millionaires of the owners and desperate, poor people even more destitute.

    Techteach

    White Clay, or a town based on it, is a featured part of the movie “Skins”, starring Eric Schweig and Graham Greene. The movie is about modern life on the Pine Ridge Rez, with some reviews here: http://video.barnesandnoble.com/search/product.asp?ean=687797872098&z=y

    The Pine Ridge Rez is the poorest area in the USA. The attitude of the “neighbors” surrounding Pine Ridge is horrifying. Seeing the poverty on some of the less poor reservations, then realizing that things are infinitely worse at Pinre Ridge, there’s no words to describe it. And most of the USA thinks that such poverty cannot exist in this country.

    #25902

    beeleaf
    Participant

    Wow, this is an awesome thread. I relate to so much of it. More about that later. I have had some similar ponderings about us mixed bloods who grew up in the “mainstream” uniting with our brothers and sisters on/from reservations for the benefit of all our relations. Wasn’t sure what it meant, but it sounded good in my head. ;~)

    We’re family. I’m not rich, but am not poor. This thread has inspired me & shown me a way to be helpful and heal myself at the same time. How about if certain donations were sent from anonymous mixed bloods?

    #25906

    janette
    Participant

    Hi Beelf,

    Sounds good to me! So many of us are in the same situation. “not rich but am not poor”! If those of us just do a little or what we can, every bit helps. It adds up. In your giving i suggest it go directly to tecteach or a group like my connections so it does not get pilfered(sp?) if sent directly to a tribe. After Wounded Knee II millions were sent to the tribes and it was stolen by not all but many that had easy access to the mailed in donations. It was such a shame. That is why my group and probably techteach go very directly to the people. If you choose to send it our way a report with photos (if the people allow) will be sent to you. Our contact information is : Hochokahealing.org …. If you go on line it will explain and show some photos too. Let me know here at the forum or at my personal email dovecreekdesigns@yahoo.com because our elders are on the road at the moment and i can help with getting it in the account etc.

    Best wishes with your own “inner struggle”

    Janette

    #25908

    sammarroq
    Participant

    beeleaf wrote: Wow, this is an awesome thread. I relate to so much of it. More about that later. I have had some similar ponderings about us mixed bloods who grew up in the “mainstream” uniting with our brothers and sisters on/from reservations for the benefit of all our relations. Wasn’t sure what it meant, but it sounded good in my head. ;~)

    We’re family. I’m not rich, but am not poor. This thread has inspired me & shown me a way to be helpful and heal myself at the same time. How about if certain donations were sent from anonymous mixed bloods?

    A local Dakota family brings clothing (especially winter jackets, etc) to Pine Ridge; anyone can donate. There are many ways we (as family) can help.:)

    #25910

    techteach
    Moderator

    Like I said earlier, you can also give through “http://www.friendsofpineridgereservation.org.” They solicit on behalf of a lot of organizations on Pine Ridge, places like the schools, the clinics, the women’s abuse shelter, etc. Frankly, you can go to the dollar store and buy a lot of what folks out there need.

    If you wish to provide money to me, that is fine. I will send it to Lakota people I know who help feed children in the outlying areas of the reservation who are too remote to benefit from some donations. Just send me an email.

    Techteach

    #25929

    daniel_bingamon
    Participant

    According to most scientific studies, they say that we call have African Ancestry. Just that some are closer to the roots than others.

    We should be proud of of those who came before us no matter what color they were.

    You’re also right in that fact that NDN’s do come in many colors. Unfortunately so many label indians based on certain charicatures.

    A whole continent of people, I so surprised at how many folks are shocked when I tell them that there so many NDN languages – they think we all stand around and say ‘hau’ from coast to coast! Ackh! So then I reason with them – “look how many language Europe has – do you think the rest of world is any different?”

    I’ve noticed that Asians have dark and light skinned people as well – and China is approximately close to the mainland US in size. Maybe a little larger

    Buffalowm wrote: I think this thread started with the subject of some of us feeling we should not deny the african ancestry….well, I think some of the problem may be we have been told from older generations that we were AA …especially in the 50’s…60’s and 70’s because of our innocent ignorance of what an NDN looks like and what the government labeled us as so many years ago….I think some of us here worry about what others may say because they don’t know that we NDNs come in many shades of color. I feel very strongly about claiming our Native heritage because we have the opportunity to claim the heritage that our ancestors may have had to deny…..

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